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F1Krazy
I'm a guy with way too many ideas and not enough time. In my spare time I develop indie games and occasionally write things.

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Anger Management

Posted by F1Krazy - July 8th, 2011


I'm seriously starting to worry about my mental state. My sister keeps yelling at me about this, that, and the other, about every little thing I do or don't do. I've told her about my mental condition before, but I reckon she just thinks I'm making excuses, that I'm making it up. Everyone in my family seems to think that. But I'm not.

Just now she was going off on one about me not getting a job (this site IS my job, dumb bitch), and about me not clearing away my leftovers after breakfast. So I got pissed and hurled my headphones at the floor and now they're broken. It's like my Game Boy Color all over again.

I'm worried that sooner or later I'm going to lose it completely and do something mental. Or violent. Or both.

I just needed to get this shit off my chest. Thanks to all you guys for sticking by me.

EDIT: Ooh, 10000 medal points! That oughta help cheer me up! ^^

EDIT 2: It's brilliant stuff like this that keeps me sane. Go watch them. They are brilliant.

EDIT 3: Got pissed off with Need For Speed: Underground last night and hurled my controller at the floor. Nearly broke it. Now I'm banned from computer games for the whole weekend (I'm assuming that includes NG, so...bye ^^')


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my brother is a little piece of $#!+ too but but I have to live with him until 18,
you just have 2 years left until freedom abd then you dont need to have anything to do with her, but you will miss her sooner or later. until then you better try to do something (being emo is not a solution) so think about it.

I suppose...

my god i have problems like that too when this computer was going slow i smashed at it 6 or 8 times then ripped off the wall paper and smashed a curtain rod on it then last night i was n the first boss in this game but it was sooooo hard so as soon as i beat him it crashed and had to beat him again then i wanted to use the computer and i almost smacked my grandma with a metal pole

Ouch.

Hey buddy just try to ignore it im sure it will do something anyway dont think about your dumb bitch sister (no offence) and look at all these games you made and people loved. so com'on and brighten up stand up teach your sister who the hell you are a game devolper and recpect that and tell your parent's act com well that's all i got so do what you were ment to do...BORN TO DO! and just maybe it well work bye my man hope it cheer's you up. :)

Thanks man.

The only problem is, as my mum likes pointing out, I ain't making any money out of these Flash games ><

Well I have gone through two playstations 2's, two or three laptop hardrives, some playstation game discs, a few books, some controllers, a shelf, and many other things because of depression which quickly led to rage. Try to figure out what is causing you problems, if it is a specific person, confront him or her. I try to keep my anger in a neat little bottle. That bottle as held it's cap around other people quite well. When I get angry I either destroy something (bad idea, don't do that) or draw what I feel(does not work either, just creates ripped sheets of paper), or just sleep and when I wake up I feel more calm and try to forget about what was bothering me. Sleeping is what helps me the most since I often see what is going on around me like it's the middle of the day. They pretty much play out like a little movie, in that movie I am butchering/shooting/torturing everyone I hate or has laughed/pitied me. Great stress relief picturing others dying. But thats just me. I hope everything works out... and the next madness scene creator is made soon.

People tell me not to bottle up my rage. But then when I let it out they get angry with me, which makes me even more angry.

I'm pretty good at imagining people dying...or just imagining things in general. I'll try that next time I get angry and see if it works.

get a punching bag that really helps or check out my video of how I relieve my stress <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M_MoRHvrfkc">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M_MoRH vrfkc</a>

I prefer to use a ball of Blu-Tac as a stress ball. But it's gone all manky and horrible now, so I can't use it anymore. That might be why I'm getting so stressed.

how to cure anger 1. buy shotgun 2. shoot whatever pisses you off 3. run like hell 4. commit sucide if 3 does not work also i threw my ps2 out the window becuase the game was not working i also nearly killed my baby sister

4 doesn't sound like an appealing option to me. I have so many ideas in my head that would just go to waste if I killed myself. Still, my dad's got a shotgun and he's getting a license, so I'm partway there.

sooooooo what if your not getting money you are still making a living right?

I suppose...

what would you do if sonic moved in your house *chokes your sis*

I dunno...

no offence but you guys fucking crazy.

I know, right? Mind you, my friends IRL are total nutcases as well XD

hey dude want to laugh i put a hat on my guinea pig and in went over his eyes and he ran in cirles

Lol, that does sound funny ^^

@F1krazy I heard the same about bottling it up being a bad idea, but it's been scraping me by so far, I haven't killed or maimed anyone yet so it's working.

K, fair enough,

sooooooo how long before we know the winner is ?

Winner? Of what?

Who get's the point's for cheering you up

I never said anything about points...in any case, you've all helped, in your own little ways. It'd be unfair to favour one of my fans over the others.

I don't see why you are banned from computer games for NEARLY breaking a controller. I broke at least 2 or 3 and nothing happened.

My dad's point of view is, if I break a controller, he has to pay for the replacement. Which is a shit point of view as far as PS2s are concerned, 'coz PS2 controllers are probably a dime a dozen and I think I have a spare one anyway.

So instead of Dad paying 99p on eBay to buy me a new spare controller, he simply bans me every time I start throwing things.